I owe some stories especially about our holiday to note down, but right now I wanna write things I'm trying to do consistently to Hanuun. Yes, out of my task at workplace, this mission aims at improving my behavior and attitude to treat my little girl. As she grows and develops everything in her, lately I see -not long ago during holiday Abi also watched- that she's in her critical time. What I mean, maybe some parents also find their 2 year old child do 'terrible thing' like my girl does. Let say, before 2, Hanuun was quite nice. Now, she often shows us great tantrums. She cries so loud, throws everything near her, showing her anger. Then the worst, she will end by saying "Ummi itu nakal", "Abi itu nakal":( very sad to hear:'(

Oneday, Hanuun was angry because I and Abi didn't allow her to turn the laptop on, we meant to persuade her playing other toys rather than watching. This thing made her enraged and threw her body over bed and bawled. No sentence could release her temper, until then Abi told me to leave her for a moment. I told her this "Ya udah Ummi pergi dulu ya....". I guess like she usually did, she will call me for hug, unexpectedly that time she said this so clearly so I got to feel like hell to hear...she said this "Ya udah pegi sanaaa..."

Can you feel what I felt that time? It was just really hard to describe...

Deep in my heart, I feel so sorry and guilty. I do know she does nothing wrong. She might know those harsh words from her environment, possibly from friends or television.

Well Hanuun, Ummi promise to myself to be more careful in treating you and protecting you from bad things. I'm sorry sayang, that Ummi hasn't been so patiently assist your growth and development. Too often I get mad of your amazing actions, and too often rise my intonation telling things:( There are matters I apologize....HENCE, I promise you these:

1. To wake up early: so I can prepare our meal, especially yours better. Also, be well-prepared for work. I make harder efforts to care about balance nutrition as well.

2. No more naps: Since you don't  have your naps too recently. I will accompany you playing and learning. 

3. To say "Astaghfirullah" as much as possible deeply in heart and keep being patient and give you my sweetest smile: when I find you start being fussy and awkward.

4. To serve you more various snacks: since I know you love eating snacks.

At least this week I will concentrate on those 4 things...I hope will do my best...and this post will remind me when I'm neglectful....

So let's have fun my little girl...let's play, learn be happy......:) I'm there to be in your side doing activities....

AND....I'm ready to cook you moreeee snacks, fatty girl:* Impatiently to listen to "WOW", "ENAK", "MANTAP", "DILICIES" from your mouth. Those are greatest gifts for me:)

Abi rajin ya...motoin karya Ummi...